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Friday, December 29, 2006


This was my attempt to write a horror story. I took one medical condition that scared me the most and placed it in my character. Hahaha. It's not great, but I had fun writing it. Err... yeah. haha!

Lament Blind Girl

January 6
Dear Diary,
This is my first entry. My mom says I should start writing my thoughts down. I asked her why and she told me to just do it. She shut the door in my face again. Anyway, I might as well write in you. I don’t have anything better to do.
My name is Cecilia Rue. I am eleven years old. I live in Shorelake County, a small town far from the big city. My dad took me there once to buy a new TV set. I didn’t like it there, too many people. I like it better here, where there aren’t a lot of people shouting in the streets. Those sounds make my head hurt and sometimes I even faint. I don’t know why. My mom says I was really weak anyway. Born that way, she says.
So here’s the deal, you keep my secrets and I’ll keep yours. Okay?
Hugs n’ Kisses,
Ceci

January 10
Dear Diary,
Today was really scary. Jena, my best friend, came over to play. We were riding our bikes to the park when suddenly everything went dark and I fell off my bike. I remember because when I woke up, I had large scratches on my arm and knees. I heard Jena screaming from behind me. When I turned to look at her, her face was bleeding! I don’t know what happened. She kept pointing at me, screaming and crying! I was so scared. I cried too. There was blood everywhere. There weren’t any cars or people around so I rode my bike back to the house to get my mom, she called Jena’s mom right away. After that we went to pick up Jena. When we got there she was lying on the sidewalk and lots of people were standing around her. I pushed through the crowd and saw that she wasn’t moving. I think she fainted too. There was blood everywhere and I know how scared Jena gets when she sees blood. My mom came and told the people to go away. She took Jena and put her in the car. We drove home and Mom was quiet. When we got there, Jena’s mom was waiting for us outside. My mom told me to go inside the house because she had to talk to Jena’s mom. It was five o’clock. I peeped through the window and saw Jena’s mom shouting inside our car. My mom saw me looking so I ran to my room to wash my scratches. I was scared for some reason and I didn’t even know what happened. I hope Jena’s alright. She’s the only friend I have.
It’s almost eleven and mom hasn’t come in yet. I’m tired. I’ll ask my mom about Jena tomorrow. Goodnight!
Yours truly,
Ceci

January 11
Dear Diary,
I woke up early and saw my mom and dad the kitchen. Mom looked really tired and Dad looked really sad. When they saw me they stopped talking! I asked my mom about Jena and she told me that I couldn’t play with Jena anymore. Dad’s taking me to the mall for ice cream, I could sure use some.
Hugs n’ Kisses,
Ceci

January 17
Dear Diary,
Mom and Dad are going out. They’re all dressed up. I asked mom where they were going and she said they were going to a funeral. I’m not invited. She won’t tell me who died. They just left and I’m watching TV.
I wish Jena was here. We could play inside the house.
Hugs n’ Kisses,
Ceci

January 25
Dear Diary,
I’m in school right now, waiting for mom to come pick me up. I never wanted to go back, but my mom said I needed to start meeting more kids my age. I liked it better when she taught me at home, at least then I didn’t have to take a bath. The kids at my school are stupid, all they talk about are dolls and they keep showing off their stuff. I don’t like playing with them at all, at least Jena’s in my class. She’s coming over after school so we could watch Harriet the Spy on Disney.
There’s this one girl named Penny who was making fun of me during recess. She called me stupid because I didn’t want to play with them. I didn’t say anything, I just left her. During class, Jena told me to cut Penny’s ponytail off. It was pretty easy because she was sitting right in front of me. She looked really dumb after! Jena and I kept laughing. Penny cried of course. The teacher sent me to the Principal’s Office. I’m here now, waiting for my mom to pick me up. She’ll be mad at me but that’s okay, it felt good cutting of Penny’s ponytail. I can’t believe Jena wasn’t sent here with me!
Hugs n’ Kisses,
Ceci

January 26
Dear Diary,
Mom shouted at me last night. She didn’t want to believe that Jena was the one who told me to cut off Penny’s ponytail. I kept telling her that it was all Jena’s idea but she didn’t listen! She told me to stop lying, but I wasn’t lying!
This morning at school, she wrote “Jena’s dead” on the board and when I saw it I jumped on her and hit her over and over. She was kicking and screaming but I was stronger. When my mom came to pick me up again I told her why I hit Penny. She didn’t believe me. I told her Penny’s the liar! Not me! She shook her head and cried on the way home. I didn’t say anything anymore.
Yours truly,
Ceci


February 15
Dear Diary,
Mom and I went to the grocery today and we saw Jena’s mom. I ran up to her and asked her where Jena was and she just laughed and went the other way. My mom got mad at me and told me to never talk about Jena again. She squeezed me real tight and it hurt a lot. I blacked out again after. When I woke up we were inside the car but it wasn’t moving and Mom was shaking all over in the driver’s seat. I came up from behind her and gave her a hug. She covered her eyes and cried real loud. I wonder what’s wrong with her. She keeps crying.
Hugs n’ Kisses,
Ceci

March 5
Dear Diary,
My mom and I are on our way to the doctor’s office. I’ve been going there a lot lately because of my blackouts. The doctors are really nice. I don’t like the smell though. They’ve been running tests and stuff on me. One of the doctors talks to me a lot and she’s happy I have a diary. The girls in school don’t talk to me anymore, that’s why I like it better here. They’re just jealous of me because I have a diary and they don’t. I’m smarter than all of them, my teacher says so. She called me special the other day. I haven’t been seeing Dad lately, and Mom always looks worried. I think I’ll go visit dad at the shop after we finish with these tests.
Hugs n’ Kisses,
Ceci

5 March 2006
Dear Diary,
I hate Dad! I hate him! I hate him! I hate him! I rode my bike to the shop after we got home from the hospital and no one was at the register so I went to check the back office. Guess what?? He was kissing Kelly! The new assistant! I’m not telling mom about it. She probably won’t believe me anyway.
Hugs n’ Kisses,
Ceci

March 15
Dear Diary,
I’m scared. Last night I had the scariest dream. I dreamt that Dad was working late in the shop again and he was there with Kelly. They were flirting by the register and they didn’t hear me and Jena come in. We hid behind one of the food stalls and I had my dad’s axe with me. Kelly was wearing a really short skirt and leaning towards Dad. Dad was kissing her on the mouth and squeezing her butt. They were leaning with their backs against the register. I got really angry and Jena told me to walk closer to the register. I was real quiet. I saw five empty bottles of beer toppled over the counter. I couldn’t believe my Dad. The fluorescent lights flickered as I raised the axe, high above his head. Quickly, I started chopping them both to pieces. Jena was cheering for me. My Dad died right away. Kelly screamed and tried to get away. I went after her though. I got her good.
I woke up this morning with blood on my hands. Mom was in the kitchen making breakfast when she asked me if I had seen Dad. I said no.
Ceci


March 20
Dear Diary,
Dad hasn’t come home yet. Mom hasn’t been sleeping. The police have searched everywhere she said. Still nothing. I’m not sure if I should tell her. Jena thinks I should. I haven’t been going to school lately. My mom said it was best if I stayed at home but she barely talks to me anymore. The doctors now go to the house to run tests. I think they want to take you from me. I won’t let them. Jena stays at the house more often.
Ceci

March 25
Dear Diary,
Something very strange is happening. Jena and I are in my room. She’s starting to scare me these past few days. The investigation’s over and they found the axe outside my bedroom window. I’m really scared diary. Jena’s been screaming at me. She keeps telling me to get out of the house and go after my mom. She keeps calling me names, and screaming curse words. I don’t want to go after my mom. She doesn’t even look like herself anymore. Her eyes are turning yellow and she’s becoming really skinny. Sometimes she just stays in a corned in my room. She just sits there, smiling at me. You know that smile Joker from Batman has? That’s what her smile looks like. Her hair’s longer now and sometimes all I can see are her eyes. Mom won’t let me out of my room. Please make her go away.

March 26
Dear Diary,
Today I think I did something bad. I was in my room again and remember blacking out. When I woke up I was on our living room floor. Jena was sitting on the couch looking down at me. She told me to stand up and that Mom was waiting for me in the kitchen. I went to the kitchen and saw my mom hiding under the counter. I went near her but she told me to stay away. She was crying and screaming! I couldn’t take it. I don’t think she loves me anymore. I went closer to give her a hug but she screamed even louder and ran towards the knife rack. I stopped walking and asked her why she was doing all that. She pointed the knife at me and I screamed. I cried. I blacked out again. When I woke up, I was lying on my mom’s lap. The knife was sticking out her chest. I ran to my room and I’m still here now, writing in you. Jena’s laughing at me, she’s sitting on the bed. Mom’s dead, diary. Mom’s dead. What am I going to do?

March 26
Dear Cecilia,
Hello. Don’t be scared. You know me, you’ve been writing to me a whole lot. You know, each time you fainted, I’d come out. I was the one who beat Jena’s face with a stone during that bike ride. She died you know. And that dream you had about your father? That wasn’t a dream. I did that. You should’ve figured it out by now. Well, we did it. You wanted him dead too. You’re not so innocent you know. You were the one who beat Penny up, not me. Although, I was watching you do it, I’m very proud. I just did it for you. And your mom, well, she had it coming. She shouldn’t have locked us up like that.
Don’t be frightened Cecilia Rue. Now, it’s just you and me.
Hugs n’ Kisses,
You’ll never guess who

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Tuesday, December 26, 2006


About the Folio:

I was really hoping that we would have a literary folio to show our output at the end of the year. However, it seems that as it stands there hasn't been much written in class, so there isn't enough to fill a folio with yet. If we really want it, it can be done. The hard part of course is the writing, and that's what I expect you all to be doing, writing, submitting stuff, us discussing things in class. So if you want the folio, then I should be seeing more work posted here and submitted to me.

So here are the things due. I hate to have to do this, but if it's what it takes:

1. sitcom scripts
2. pieces on the places where you grew up
3. horror stories

And you can submit whatever you want us to see and talk about whenever, regardless of genre or form. Please guys, we've got a quarter left and I hardly know your writing. Anyways, enjoy the rest of the vacation. I hope you all come back rested up and ready to write. Also that by the end of the vacation I see your horror stories here.

For workshop:

Here's a horror piece. Please make comments. I don't have a title yet, so I'd accept suggestions.




She knows the situation. She has seen it too many times that it is impossible for her not to know what is happening and what will happen. She knows fear.

Just out of the shower, her hair still in a towel, she is wearing a pair of her skimpiest underwear. She is not so sure why she has put them on, in fact she wonders now as she walks down the stairs to the living room to investigate a creaking noise, why she had the impulse to put them on when on any other night she would have put on an oversized T-shirt and gone to bed.

She is home alone. Her parents are somewhere. It is raining hard out, the pellets of rain relentless; she could swear that it sounds like countless dead children’s fingers stabbing at the roof. Her house allows for this situation. It matters little if it’s a house in an American suburb or a Filipino subdivision. What matters are the glass doors, the back door that leads out to the lawn, the large rooms, high ceiling, the way that there is darkness cast everywhere as if the architect intended for these shadows, this eeriness; what matters is that there is a sense of isolation.

She sees that the back door is ajar. She could have sworn that she had locked it, had locked all the doors before taking a shower. First she thinks it must have just been the wind, that she hadn’t locked the door and it had merely swung open. But then she knows that she has seen this, that it is impossible for her not to recognize this motif.

She knows that if someone were watching her now, they would be screaming for her to run, to get out of there, go run, go now, what are you waiting for? But she does not. It feels as if she cannot. It feels as if she has a role that she must follow. And thus, she moves to the kitchen.

As she walks, she calls out, Hello, hello, is someone there? though she already knows that she will get no answer. There is a blur she glimpses just at the corner of her vision, some movement that barely registers. Fear grips her, and she thinks now of all the times that she has watched something like this transpire. She could not understand why the girl in her situation did not run.

She knows now, because like the girl, she cannot run. She cannot move, in fact. The fear has petrified her. It is no longer some imagined viewer she hears screaming run, it is her own mind screaming run, run out to the lawn, make your way to the neighbors, find help, just get out of that house. But loud as her mind screams, her body fails to obey. Her spine shivers and feels as if it has hardened, her feet become rooted to the floor.

Then another creak. It is the back door closing. She hears the door swing. And then, in the silence, in her stillness, she can’t help but hear the deadbolt being turned. It sounds sickening to her, a lurch then thud as the lock slides into place.

There is a flash of lightning and a crackle of thunder and she leaps in fear. She can move again.

She finds herself still heading to the kitchen. Again, she does not know why she is drawn to the kitchen, but she goes there. She cannot bear to turn on the lights. She knows that if she opens the refrigerator door, the light will splash out and reveal that thing that she fears most at the moment. She is not ready for that yet.

She calls out again, hello, this isn’t funny anymore. She laughs, like in the movies, calls out to her friends, maybe her boyfriend, says their names and says, come on, this isn’t funny anymore, you’ve had your laughs, I’m scared now, okay? so you can come out now. As she says this she reaches for the phone that is in the kitchen. By now she knows that the phone line will be cut, or if it’s up, that by the time she manages to dial and connect with help, the phone line will go dead.

She picks up and turns on the cordless phone, and sure enough, the line is dead. There are only two ways that this could end, she knows. The first is that she will open the refrigerator door, allowing the light from there to reveal a shadow. She will scream, run, a chase will ensue, and she will feel the blade rip through her flesh when she has made it to the lawn. The last thing she will feel before the last slash is the impact of cold mud and wet grass against her skin. The rain will continue to fall as she dies. The second is that she will continue calling out, she will keep asking for whoever is there to reveal himself. Afraid, her voice will start breaking, and it’s very likely that this will cause her assailant more pleasure than he expected. Then there will be one last flash of lightning, the last she will ever see. In that last flash she will see him, and before she can run, he will be upon her.

She wants neither. She knows, and still she cannot accept the situation.

She puts the telephone back on the counter. She sees another flash of lightning, hears another growling of thunder. The sliver of light reveals nothing. She knows that she only has until the next lightning strike to do whatever it is she plans to do. In the dark her hands crawl across the countertop searching for the cutlery holder.

She takes a knife and waits for the lightning to strike.

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Tuesday, December 19, 2006


Hey guys here's a poem i read recently that i really like and thought you might have fun reading. I look forward to seeing your submissions here (impatient teacher taps fingers on the table and looks sternly at class). In the meantime, a fun poem from Mark Halliday:


Refusal to Notice Beautiful Women

I don't know why I didn't think of this before.
It's so simple: I just won't notice.
Twenty years ago the hormones would have exploded this idea
but now I'm-now I have the wisdom of-anyway
I'll just be like "What? Oh, I didn't notice. Where?
Over there? Nope, didn't happen to see her."
Life is going to be a lot easier. I'll read more books;
I won't keep looking up when someone comes into the cafe`
because who cares? I mean,

to hell with them! They want to be so impossible?
They want to be so many versions of sublimity on two legs?
Let them go watch each other, whatever, let them go tantalize
lurching iron pumpers who wear backwards baseball caps.
Or let them go get engagement rings from suits that wear cologne,
vice presidents with tickets to Jamaica. I'm very vague on all that
because I'm so devoted to other values. Like,
art's endless campaign to represent the mysteries of the spirit's
passage through the realm of time and change. That's
what I'm all about-but I get distracted I mean till now I did
get distracted by BWs but that's over. Finito.
Let them shimmer and slink in Jamaica,
let their bikinis be murderous-
that's only flesh! Flesh is nothing but-you know, it's only meat
.It's only physical substance. With whatever warmth and smoothness
ultimately it's-well, the seventeenth-century guys called it dust
and they had a point. Were they happy? Well,
that's not my problem. I've got very large bookstores I can go to
where a thousand books are shiny and smooth-

I abjure Jamaica. I extract Jamaica from my heart
with the tweezers of mature sobriety. Not that I had any actual access
okay okay anyway I have this life now: I embrace it.
My jeans are wearing through at the knees. I embrace this.
My hair, to the extent that it remains, points northeast in a peculiar way
since my last haircut by Dawnette who is much less sexy than her name
and who calls to mind a vat of mashed potato-but I don't say that
because she' s human, plus I'm not thinking about how any woman looks.
Yesterday I spilled ginger ale all over the seat of my gray Mazda-
all right. It's my life. I accept it. The thought that a BW is unlikely
to ride in an old gray Mazda coated with ginger ale does not come up.
I read books. Oh,
perhaps on occasion I recall that in 1967 Kathy Farley smiled at me
on Thayer Street but I know that has become fiction, she is fictive,
and I'm off now to a very large bookstore,
and once I've got a tall mocha and some slim volumes in the cafe`
even the Michelle Pfeiffer of 1983 couldn't make me look up.

by Mark Halliday from Michigan Quarterly Review

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Monday, December 04, 2006


Aaand a grand total of two poems! Heh. The first is my place where I grew up poem, and the second is something I have been working on the past week. Tell me what you think!


The Place I’ll Return To Someday

The air is saturated with the stories of ages

Ghosts of people I used to know

And people I will never know

Infused in the dark brown paneling.


Dark brown, and hardwood

And capiz shell windows

How can this structure withstand

The poundings and rumblings of

Toddlers running after trains

And fathers moving furniture around.


Indeed, how, when the least

Of us is numbered at four?

My grandfather knew that

Wealth is in the breadth of laughter

In one’s house long after he has gone.


Wealth is the roundness of cheek

From food that went from garden to table

It is the great number of hands to help

Sons, daughters, nieces, nephews

And the abundance of mouths to appreciate.


My brothers and sisters are as fleet-footed

As I am; we shall make the world ours.

Yet not cobble stoned cities nor palm tree

Beaches, not sienna savannahs, not

Robots or gondolas or chocolate castles

Would keep us away from our home


Where our road dusted souls would

Take their place in the walls

And whisper to our sons and daughters

The tales of our nights and days.



Nocturne and Semi-Clarity

Maybe if I let you talk to me

I'd stop feeling like a

burst balloon, but the

emptiness stems from

the sound of your voice

and everything it brings back


because moving on is

a dance of denial

and drunken pre-dawns


and forgetting has become

bitter with mute deafness.


So maybe if I pick up

to hear you say "Are you fine?"

(could you get any more

ridiculous than are you fine)

I could probably tell you

"Yeah, sure," and mean it


then could moving be

a bit more sober

and a little less worthless


and forgiving would not

play us a piano solo


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